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    Bee Mar
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    INTERESTING STORY HERE: Atma Namaste Tana Hoy! I’m a basic pranic healer from philippines. I’m not really good in english, just please bear w/ me. It’s been 3 weeks and I’m still in pain. You are definitely right in your other video, “If your a doctor, doesn’t mean you can diagnose yourself”. Okay let me begin my story, I heard this anonymous guy on a radio, he was confessing about his one night stand experience with a woman, afterwhich he shared his mobile number on air and upon hearing it, I saved his number on my phone. I texted him with simple “Hi” and he responded right away (can no longer remember what was it) after that, I decided not to continue. it takes 2 or 3 days before I had the gut to communicate with this anonymous guy again.. I just want it for fun, I introduced myself as a woman though I’m not (I’m a dude) as we we’re texting I felt something special about this person was wondering why he was able to respond in a very timely manner given that he shared his number on air. As per him, Lots of people texted him, but for no reason he’s more interested with me. He gaved his complete name for me to add him on facebook and apparently I can’t do it. So I lied again, I told him I have no facebook (Insert anxiety here). HERE’S THE CATCH: I searched his name on facebook with my real account, And I can’t believe what I have found “This anonymous guy is my childhood crush and haven’t seen him for more than 10 years” – I am 100% sure because of mutual friends we have. For that reason, I got more reasons to hide my identity (No one should know about it). We continued texting and we even exchange “I love you’s” everyday. Often even in texting we can read each others mind if we are sending indirect thoughts and that is amazing. I feel like I’m talking to my other self. We are treating each other as if we are lovers and we stayed for that no commitment relationship for more than a year even though we haven’t meet each other yet and he didn’t know my real identity (honeslty, I wanna end it coz it’s bothering me all the time yet something’s holding me back) Until such time he got rehabilitated for six months due to drugs. I just knew it, when he got out from rehab. We even meet 3x since his cousin happened to be my cousin as well, but I and him are not related. And he has no idea that I am the person he was texting with, although we don’t talk personally and he didn’t even know my name personally. Eventually we decided to end our communication and it was really painful for me. After 2-3 months we communicated back and I found out that he’s already in japan with his mom. He stayed there for a year and got new friends I already told him my identity and had a video calls on skype and later on we ended our communication again. He overstayed in Japan and was sent back here in philippines. I was praying to God that he’s really meant for me he would give us a chance to meet each other and I would try my beat to take him out of his bad habits (Drugs) One day he contacted me and we met at the park (Coincidentally, that was july and july was the month 3 years ago when we first text) he was so depressed and asking for an advice (he was asking me about if it’s better to go for rehab again or what not, I only answered him by saying “follow what you think is right” and he decided not to, so I decided to always look after him) It was painful for me to see him sick. He invited me at their house to have some dinner with his dad and he invites for succeeding days until he always ask me to stay at their home as per him he feels safe and comfortable when we are together which I feel the exactly the same. I remember his genuine smile whenever he see me coming to their house and we love staying at the river side talking about random stuffs while listening to waterflows. I love him so much and I cannot imagine my life without him.. I want to protect him, take care of him, i want to be with him for the rest of my life and I’m willing to tell the world how much I love him not caring at all about what might be my family’s reaction once they knew that I’m having a speial relationship with a guy. Yes, we exchange “I love you’s” again and we sleep together (No sex at all because I don’t want to take advantage of his weakness) i even caught him in middle of sleep he was rubbing his hands on my face and touched my lips and as I open my eyes he smiled genuinely. Until one day, i can sense that there is something wrong.. i always ask him if something’s bothering him and he just said “I’m afraid being discriminated” my world fell and it’s breaking me so hard. I just nod and choose not to talk about it further. He became cold and eventually he wanted to end our non-commited relationship and I keep on asking why but what I’m getting is denial, he would just say “Let’s be friends coz i don’t wanna hurt you. There was no closure at all. I feel like i’m hanging on the edge but i know and I can sense it he is afraid.. It was really painful and it bothers me all the time.. Like i cannot imagine my life without him.. He’s a pranic healer as well and he was the one who invited me to join the group. I don’t want to be hopeless romantic but i can no longer count all the coincidences we have.. I have this feeling that he still loves me but he’s afraid to be discriminated with his family.

    #10760

    Bee Mar
    Participant

    Too much grammar lapses. I got no more time to do some editing. Lol my apologies

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